it happened. it's over. everything's gone. everything happened so fast. but there's still that feeling inside me. the feeling before i went on stage, that feeling while dancing. but i couldn't remember what i did at all. everything shot past me in something jus like a few seconds. and somehow, i didn't feel tired at all. i feel as if my mind is detached from my body. like i totally blacked out but i'm still dancing my life out. the feelings before and after everything was a total mixture of everything. nervousness was seen on everyone's faces, and i think i felt like breaking down before we all went in. stage right and stage left. gosh i can never forget everything. before i went on stage, we were all squeezing each other's hands and saying jiayou. n the minute before they announced our school, lily pat my shoulder and said jiayou. it really gave me a lot of strength and courage. it mattered alot. i wanna go out there and pin all over again. i wanna smile confidently at the audience and look at the judges with sharp, dagger eyes. even though they are super small and everything... i wanna go out there and use up all my energy to prove that i actually used any. when i recover from shock and realize that i don't feel like i used energy at all, i was so afraid. i got smacked a few times but it shows that all of us are doing our very best cos i got smacked real hard. hahahah. it seems so magical how u can forget about any pain or suffering when u're on stage dancing ur best. i think that even if one of us were pouring out blood, she won't even realize it. after the whole dance, the tears that was on everyone's faces was definitely tears of joy. tears that symbolises how much they love Crescent dance. how much they are willing to go all out for Crescent dance. how much effort everyone put in as a whole to fight this battle.死也要拼出来！！thank you everyone who gave me the courage and strength to fight this. i know i'm very weak and all of you helped me overcome all my fears. this includes the whole of Crescent dance and 2S1 for all the encouragement u have given us. sec 4 seniors are leaving and i would like to specially thank all of u for the amount of time and effort u have put in to make all of this possible. all of us noe that the process was the most difficult, the diaoing and the waking us up. the huge amount of energy used on us, it all mattered alot. sincerely.Labels: emo days
got me singing like, nananana everyday, 5:05 PM.
